I am now an employee of
It's going to be a lot different from my previous retail jobs. Professional clothing, older people, commission. I'm excited.

I can't wait for Friday. Hard Festival raavveeein


On another note, I've finally broke out into the dating scene again, and I find it hilarious that 2 different guys whom I was interested in turned out to be gay/bi/dont know what they are. I just have the best luck ever.

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I'm trying my best to take advantage of every day I have left here. Yesterday I took a nice drive by myself to Westwood, somewhere I've never been before, but I wanted to check out some local thrift stores that I've heard much buzz about. I got lost a million times, I got frustrated with traffic and the lack of public parking in the busy areas, and I realized how much I love living here. I can't even imagine how much different my life would be if I grew up living in some small town somewhere else in the US. I don't want to get all philosophical and whatnot, but I sometimes wonder out of all the world, why was I born next to one of the biggest cities in the world and I'm very thankful to how being here has given me so much opportunity, perspective, and knowledge. I take for granted that I'm at one of the cultural centers of the world, no where else am I going to be next to biggest variety of shopping from the best thrift stores, the designers, I'm not going to have melrose, little tokyo to buy my japanese fashion magazines, the best mexican food, the best night life, everything at the tip of my finger. I don't want to brag at all, so I'm just going to say I'll miss it a lot. Los Angeles aside, I'll miss Pasadena the most, it is probably one of the most unique cities I've ever been in. Driving from old town to the top of Lake, being from an urban area to the mountains in less than 5 minutes, driving down all those mansions on orange grove and a couple minutes later being in a notorious gang area, so many different life styles and cultures in one city, it's amazing. So I'm trying my best to take advantage of this last year I have here, it's kind of sad but I'm so excited for what lays in front of me.
In the way of academics, I've been focusing a lot on what colleges I'm applying to next month and I discovered an amazing school that I'm really interested in, Cal State Monterey Bay, It's a block away from the beach and has a good environmental science program. So I'm sure I'm going to be going there if I don't go to UCSB, UCD or UCSC or cal poly slo. I'm so impatient for March, I want to know where my future lays.
and it seems that I only feel like writing in here when I'm pretty drunk, pretty sad. I guess that's the only way I can gather my thoughts together.

Its funny looking at my itunes "recently played" and seeing how much my music taste changes depending on my mood and current life situations. Right now I can relate to almost every Kate Nash song and well as other amazing female musicians such as jenny lewis and lily allen. I've realized now how much better life is with some sense of closure. it always stresses me out to have things left untied. I'm more inspired now than ever to step out of my shell and explore whats in front of me.

Incase I haven't made it clear yet, I FUCKING LOVE going to school 8 hours then immediately going to work for another 7 or 8 hours, coming home at midnight, having to do homework for an hour or two then waking up at 6 am to go back to school. My body feels dead and I'm the most stressed/exhausted/aggravated/sad I've been in my life. All I can think about is my old psychology teacher teaching us about "delayed gratification." All this hard work will pay off. and for the record, I havent seen any of my friends in around 2 weeks, and I'm going crazy.