I'm getting pretty ballsy nowadays.

I'm starting to realize it would be a lot easier to put the pieces back together rather than find new pieces.
I'm happier than I've been in weeks, it's a start.

I'm your temporary solution to your permanent problem.

Yeah, you were right about me.
But can I get myself out from underneath
This guilt that will crush me
and in the choir I saw our sad Messiah.
He was bored and tired of my laments.
Said, "I died for you one time, but never again"

And I feel, so much depends on the weather
So is it raining in your bedroom?

All I can think of lately is how badly I want to move out. I just have this image in my head of me and my room which I get to decorate myself, incense burning all the time, classic rock playing in the background constantly and me laying around in a sundress smoking bowls, its perfection. and seeing all my friends being happy in college far away, it made me think if I made the right decision by staying here another year, and then yesterday learning that most of my coworkers are in there mid 20's and are still working at a "job" nd not a career inspired me to never be like that. I dont know what Im trying to get at by this, but it turns out I failed my trig class, and I'm dissapointed in myself kind of. I need a break from school so bad. I wish I could be done with math but I have 4 more classes ahead of me. I'm saving up for the down payment on a motor scooter, yeee

I'm pretty content with my life right now, although I feel like I shouldnt be.
My job is pretty cool, I like spending my time with someone, and I'm slowly easing my anger problems and I'm overall a really better person than I use to be, I love it.

Portions for Foxes

aka, my relationship.

theres blood in my mouth
cause ive been biting my tongue all week
i keep on talking trash but i never say anything
and the talking leads to touching
and the touching leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left
and its bad news
baby im bad news
im just bad news bad news bad news
i know im alone if im with or without you
but just being around you offers me another form of relief
when the lonliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to calling you
and i call you and say come here!
and its bad news
baby im bad news
im just bad news bad news bad news
and its bad news
baby its bad news
its just bad news bad news bad news
cause your just damage control for a walking corpse like me
like you
cos we'll all be
portions for foxes
yeah we'll all be
portions for foxes
theres a pretty young thing in front of you
and shes real pretty and shes real into you
and then shes sleeping inside of you
and the talking leads to touching
and the touching leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left
and its bad news
i dont blame you
id do the same thing
i get lonely to
and your bad news
my friends tell me to leave you
that your bad news bad news bad news